How are you feeling?
Fine… she responds
What does fine mean?
She Look down with a blank expression
Don’t..know she said softly
What do you like she ask?
I love it
Okay .. She said
What do you want to do ?
I always want to be alone
I afraid when people call my name I feel uncomfortable
I just don’t feel like
I want to be lonely
Okayyy …..so you don’t hurt someone?
It doesn’t seems like that….
i cannot fulfill their expectations
She said looking down
Why do you think that you have to fulfill others wishes?
Cause then they won’t hate me
Why do you think they hate you ?
So how are you physically?
Can you please add more to it
She said softly I feel myself numb and tired everything is scary
Everything gives pain
When i inhale my chest ache
My hands hurt
I feel my whole body dieing
I try to avoid eating to overtake the pain
I am going through
I feel like if I would cry it would kill.me
I feel pain in my head nothing is there
That can help it
Thoughts can’t be
Controlled I always think about questions which doesn’t have any answers
I feel like dieing is the only thing which could save me
Cause humans can’t be trusted
My existence is more.like a burden
Reading books and quotes doesn’t help anymore
The more i.try to.fix it
The more it gets complicated
So now I think it’s better to be alone
No one would care no one would harm.